Claudia Gary

Turmoil

It brought you here. Where is your gratitude,

slamming the door like that? Thanks for the ride!

you should have said. Instead, stubborn and rude,

you stomp along the sidewalk lost in pride,

thinking of ways to even out the score.

You rage, fixate, obsess and agonize.

What’s worse, you’re plodding just when you should soar

and raise your head, serene, with open eyes.

 

It tries to leave without you but you call it

back from its expedition around town                     

and it obeys. You grab your coat and wallet,

hop in again. The engine’s wearing down     

and burning oil. Blue smoke from the exhaust

signals, Get out, get out, before you’re lost.

Morning, 1956

Beside our sunken living room, my parents 

sat at the kitchen table and refilled 

their swirled-gray coffee cups, discussing merits

of Eisenhower versus Stevenson,

Kefauver versus Nixon. Static-ridden,

 

each candidate debate on radio

would chip away the smooth consistency

of our routine. I heard an edge in each 

parental voice, until I said, “Why don’t you 

both stay home on Election Day?” But soon

 

my mother introduced me to the metal

machines with turning levers, crisp white labels

printed authoritatively with black 

letters. She probably helped elect Ike.

The next day, breakfast time was back to normal:

 

She would stir half-and-half into her coffee

and Dad would show her why there was no need

to stir it, as the pouring made it blend

and settle, more or less, into a bitter

sweetness that they would sometimes let me taste.

Claudia Gary teaches workshops on Villanelle, Sonnet, Natural Meter, Persona Poems, Poetry vs. Trauma, etc., at The Writer’s Center (writer.org) and privately, currently via Zoom. Author of Humor Me (2006) and several chapbooks, most recently Genetic Revisionism, she is also a health/science writer, visual artist, and composer of tonal art songs and chamber music. Her 2022 article on setting poems to music is available online. Her chapbooks are available via the email address at pw.org/content/claudia_gary.